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got more harvest work, main work, dad-ordained work and every sort o work imagineable so i might not be online very often
depressive confession
going thru a depressive episode, so i may as well take the time to confess something i have told few people. i hate myself i hate myself with every fiber of my being. i look in the mirror and revile the face that looks back. i have screwed up so many times in my life that almost every day i wonder what things would be like, how much better my family's lives would be, if i had killed myself in the past. i fight these sorta thoughts every day. sometimes i keep them down and hidden. sometimes they come out from my brain's closet like a gay man with a boombox. and that's why i sometimes ask people what they like about me. cuz if there's something about me they like, maybe i'm not all bad.
Depression sucks
A letter to my friends
if it feels like i'm spamming you guys a lot with stupid questions and fears, i'm sorry. I'm just constantly afraid that I'm messing up somewhere, that I'm doing something wrong and not realizing it. I'm afraid that, as life goes on, you decide i'm not worth talking to anymore. I've lived my life in emotional fear for so long I need to be constantly reminded if things aren't going wrong. Otherwise I being to fear the worst, to fear that I'm becoming nothing more than a distraction or annoyance to you all. I don't mean to say this to sound like a whiny bitch, but I dunno how else to word it. I never want to sound whiny
Life sucks
anyone who's not dead, leave a comment talking about something nice that happened recently. i'll start.
last weekend was actually relaxing.
HELP MY FRIEND
Jiryuu (https://www.deviantart.com/jiryuu) is in some pretty dire straits right now. If anyone can help her with anything, it would be amazing. Seriously, she is in a hell of a rough spot and needs any help she can get. Please, help her. She's a good person and doesn't deserve to be in trouble like this.
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I hope they don't work you to death o.o
Be careful!
Be careful!